with regards to my previous post, i decided that if I were 20 years younger.
I would be playing with the coolest toys in the world.
and not playing around with fonts to squeeze a 1.5" thick legislation into an A4 sized paper for the pseudo-open book examination.

today i spent 11am to 8pm studying and covering a lot of grounds in the drug world (:
i am happy.
but the best thing is talking to dear小妹. though we all have grievances with the current system~
But increasingly, I feel like I am on a treasure hunt.
to find Truth, according to the Bible, BUT applicable & logical for my generation.

nope, not the youthy hippy "i-am-cool" generation.
i am so past that for those who still thinks they need to be cool and youth-ful to talk to me...

but i mean, for the "we-are-seeking-relevance" generation of mine.
somehow, Christians or non-Christians alike, don't you think the world is spinning in a queer way we can't understand? and working hard and obeying doesn't seem to fully work anymore?
I do. Do you??

I guess even our parents, elders, and predecessors can never give us clear instructions & formulas to success anymore. maybe you already know.
maybe only now I feel the impact of this. maybe only now I find that even my own ways can't help me through life.
I'm still on my treasure hunt. to find Truth. and practical ways to live it out.

If I were 20 years younger,
I'd marry him who said

"jiejie Grace! I eat satay!"

what's life without randomness

sometimes it rains elephants and hippopotamuses in Singapore.
Simple happyness is not, being able to sleep at home and let the time slip past.
but simple happyness is letting God protect your laptop while you run under the ferocious onslaught of water for 300m home.

simple happyness is meeting up to relax before exams (:
RV-78 + Andy + simple food = simple happyness

as usual, china rocks and you tube doesn't have this video.
so the subtitles are in chinese.

Title: Citizen Dog (2004)
i like the colour composition of every scene in this movie.
and also the ridiculous things that added up to a meaningful movie (:

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/9YSBUedsIlg/

trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jn47ifAAOVw

simple happyness is taking the hectic tests and report schedules of this pharmacy course in my stride.
well, i'm done being bound by expectations and CAP scores and test grades.
and especially the every week one freaking scary test and the stresses of a singaporean life.

I guess it's great to take everything in my stride and just do my best.
even though it means being only ready on the morning of the test.

Chromatography theory test turned out quite great.
I'm pretty confident of my answers and could recall quite a lot of things which much clarity... like I did in secondary school.
Which is rare, and happy.
because I wanna learn to take things in my stride.


An enjoying random moments that make a person alive. Instead of chasing after deadlines. or beign chased by it!
Well, I haven't finished the lab reports AND thai homework I have due tomorrow.

But I decided that hanging out at a friend's place would make me more of a human than not... and if we live by deadlines and stick to them.
We'd fare well and great on paper..
But will citydwellers feel filled spiritually? Learning new skills and picking up new things seem like a new trend and pursuit. Learning something not just to "tan jia" but something you would be interested in?
or maybe we just need to hang around people more.

happyness. probably is that simple?

oh yah i still have to pia my lab reports till late today.
but if i didn't hang out, i'd be spending approximately the same amount of time convincing myself that i shouldn't be facebooking... while doing it.
and Pharmacy Law lecture tomorrow is going to be crap. so i'd have 2h to do my thai homework.
last minute. so what? it's mangeable...
and i feel more human.

Humans were not meant to face each other via written text more than face-to-face interactions.